Thought its going to be easy and simple. Makin hampir makin siksa kepala memikirkan. Terlalu menyakitkan kata kata halangan.. but what? i am not a child and i have my own choice in my life. When people fail in life.. that's not fail. Its just a test from Allah. And that doesn't mean she/he fail, i would fail too...
Since the day i made up my mind, i thought i was doing the right thing. But someone disagree. Some i love so dearly.. why?? I am so hurt but i just have to ignor that feeling because i didnt want it to spoil my thinking...
I wish... but of course lah. Deep inside Allah saja yang mengetahui. Lemah me menahan rasa.. How i wish Babah is around so i can get advice from him.. Ya Allah...
Since malam raya i have not been so tenang.. but alhamdulillah tenang me menjalankan tugas. Amat besar dan berat dugaan yang di beri tapi i know yang di beri setentunya dapat di handle tapi again berat.. sampai pada raya pertama kan menangis sebak di dada waktu bertugas.. hati kusut dan terkenang.. alangkah indah nya jika raya tahun ani ..... Ya Allah..
Even now.. sms yang di terima dari kawan kawan membuat kan me tersenyum.. tetapi sms yang di hantar dari my beloved one mengoyak hati rasa terharu me oleh nya.. My beloved one inda happy this raya... Ps. i am not talking about my other half.. i am talking about ...... I am sorry..
Menitik air mata apabila mengetahui air mata tertitis ... sakit eh. Like makan pun inda kenyang, bercakap pun angan angan.. lain rasa nya bila sudah besar like this.. bukan nya kanak kanak inda kan merasa, dah dewasa ani terasa jua.. I am sorry.
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